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Monday, September 20, 2010
Monday. Night. Depressed.As i said..I'm trying to change, for the better... better.. i hope so. Thursday, was supposed to meet Mihyun for lunch. Morning; badminton with Mich n Sel. But...things changes....bcox of mum. Dun wish to talk already, or else I'll b undergoing the "test" again. When I knew that Thursday's plans are gonna be cancelled...I almost had a war with mama. In the past, when she did those things, WWIII happened. However, for today, I bear with it. Even though I'm really mad with Mama, I don't wish to quarrel with her, because I knew if I talked to her, my tone's not gonna b nice. So, I kept quiet.(internal water boiling) I put on my ear piece, and I played that track again and again.. This song, always calmed my nerves... While listening to this song, I'm still very angry at my Mama.. But as my anger continues, I closed my eyes. I asked God to listen to me. I tried all ways to calmed myself down really... That is when, I know: Its so hard to change. However, I cannot give up. In the end, I managed to suppress the"anger" However, I still more time. I couldn't talk to Mama still.. I still need to learn how to see things differently and always look on the bright side. I just need time. Sounds drama.. But I would really like to be a better person, Just give me some time.. Will you? Will they?
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