But.... apparently it didn't work.

Back to those days...

I knew what was going on, but I pretended that I didn't know.

Deep down in my heart, I was smiling like I'm the most lucky human being on earth.

Gradually, I didnt know that I'm losing you....

Day by day, the distance between us increases.

Because of pride, I refused to do anything.

I refused to show the weaker side of me.

Wearing a smile the whole time, no one knows how regretful am I....

If only... if only...

If only I turn back time, will everything be different?

But I know its impossible....

What can I do?

Just continue smiling and live my life.

I'll bring this regret with me till the day I'm gone.

No one will ever know the details.

No one.

Only me...

Why? Because of my pride.

Individualism......

Not only because of this incident, many things happened around me, knowing too many stuff, made me feel like.....

I'm not getting married at all.

Why marry>?

Its only a piece of paper.

A status.

Nothing changes.

Why get tied down when I can have freedom?

Life is short, I dont want to be tied down.

Freedom is what I am looking for.

Likewise, people change.

Once their feelings change, its very hard to find back and... things wont be the same too.

It can be scary when people changes. Especially feelings.

Just like a mirror, once broken, no matter how hard you glued it or fixed it back, there will be cracks. It will never be the same as before.

22 years old this year.

As time goes by, many people will be asking: "do you have a bf?""intentions to get married?" blah blah blah....

Big bro is 24 this year, and everyone start to ask when is he getting married....

But different people have different thinking.

To me, career and freedom... the utmost important thing in my life.

No one can ever change me.

Many people ask me not to say all these too early, what if one day I met my 'prince charming'? sure get married de...

NO NO NO!!!

Ever will that day happen...

NEVER

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